today i bring to you a few new years gifts in honor of the gregorians, and the recent full moon. you don’t have to open them. they can just sit there on your mantle, or archives. forever.
but first, just a little reminder about the InYourHeadNess of it all. as in, the 36 hour bus ride from tucson to mexico city with salsa music and meteors still reverberating in my mind and even sticky on my body, and the occasional darting field mice of doubt –
why are you here?
what are you doing?
what other names do you have under these southern stars?
once again, the amorphous facade of a plan, just enough to slip by the bullet-proofs vests of the border patrol without a full-on interview (as I here him whisper to his partner, he’s got all kind of stamps from weird african countries, like li-BEER-ia), but certainly not enough to convince me what i’m doing is actually worthwhile. but then, it just take fifteen seconds off the bus in the polluted mexico city area, florescent lights of the bus terminal, pay phones, ATMs, and tamale carts, to remember why it is we do anything — whether it’s travel disguised as work, work disguised as travel, orange juice, or sunset walks to the tailor:
we love it.
there’s this linguistic concept here, the “mandado”. it translates to errand, but is a form of “mandar”, to be sent. to have been ordered. so “ive got to do some errands” becomes, for me, “i have been given a sacred mission”. and that mission, walking down the streets between the lush vegetation, honking bicycle carts, aggresive drivers, and street musicians, is to love every moment. standing with the juiceman this morning as he squeezed (literally) dozens of oranges for the two liters of juice i desired, watching him methodically grab oranges from his mobile (shopping-cart) juicing station with his right hand, and return them to a jute compost bag with his left. interminable cycle of creation and destruction with the delicious juice of life in between.
it happens to me everytime i travel. i’m on the plane, wondering why i’m going where i am, and why not somewhere else. why i’m making these decisions myself without the gentle cradle of obligation to support me. and then i get there, i smell the air, i see the people, and i know, i just Being there. nothing more and nothing less.
so that’s it. small distinction still between thinking and being. anxiety and relaxation. the future hanging out in the corner, smoking, with coincidence and the other NOTs.
happy holidays. don’t let them end. 2012 is just the beginning. the dawn of a new era. or, as I tried to express yesterday to some new friends in Mexico (at Isla Urbana, an urban rainwater-harvesting project):
A veces,
puedo ver pequenos rayos de luz,
el amanecer que nos espera cuando
unamos y juntemos nuestros trabajitos,
cuando lleguemos a tejer
nuestras passiones y conciencias
en una tapestria gigante,
la cual cubre
todas
las sombras pendientes
con amor
or,
Sometimes,
I glimpse those first tender rays of a waiting dawn.
We’ll get it together, throw in our pieces of the puzzle,
untangle the strings and weave together
our passions and our conscience
into a giant quilt,
smother any tempted shadows with love
*
gifts include: pictures, a schedule, a poem, one meandering canyon’s thoughts, and a recipe for egg curry, from niger.
1] ginga egg curry recipe, from niger
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courtesy of mlle balkissou of bruxelles and niger. but, like the rest of us, she really lives in the Heart.
[preparation]
0. West-african music on the ra-di-o
1. You take some onions and peel them and cut the ends off. (“pro-tip” follows) sometimes it’s easier to peel them after you cut the ends off.
2. Cut the onion in half, from end to end, so it has the widest and safest cross-section on the board.
3. Align the onion with the stars and your knife and cut it in thin strips from end to end, taking pleasure as it all falls apart.
4. Prepare gnger and garlic. Garlic is crushed together and ginger is julienne rather small. Let’s say you have two onions. Then you might have one cubic inch of garlic. And, the intense part : almost as much ginger as onion.
5. One large tomato for your two onions, cut into big pieces. One small can of tomato paste, at the ready.
[fascination]
0. Heat some oil in a pan. You might be healthy but this _is_ west african food, so you can put a little more than normal. the entire bottom of the pan (once the oil is hot) perhaps. If you have some palm oil, or dende, it would go well.
1. Fry the onions for a bit. Once they begin to brown, add the tomato paste. Mix it all in. Add half the garlic, half the ginger, and the tomato. Stir it together
[1.5 Optional small green chiles, minced, could enter the picture here.]
2. There are two kinds of water in the world. Small water and Plenty water. Add small water, so everything is incorporated, happy, and in communal harmony.
3. Crack your eggs (one per person? more?) into the soup. Let it thicken. As the eggs cook, add the rest of the ginger and garlic.
4. Let it cook until everything has firmed up a bit. If you need more time, add more water or oil, depending on whose looking.
5. Salt.
2] a few pictures
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from this fall in sequim. mainly demonstrating the incredible power of water in different ways. and horses
https://picasaweb.google.com/mangolandia/Fall2011Sequim?authuser=0&feat=directlink
3] one meandering canyons thoughts
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perhaps because i don’t have a camera, i’m just going to tell you we want walking before the new year through the canyonlands national park in utah. stepping through the fractal of rock across colors and cultures. the red zone. the white zone. the tan zone. sometimes, through the grace of geometry and water, trees and bushes, a season wash, the movement of water etched into sand, pebbles, cliffsides, and the whole domain. carved by time.
and somehow, in this magical and brutal landscape, people had been paid to make trails, to guide young trippers through the magic of the world in such a way they had a reasonably good chance of finding the vehicle again. and on this trail, sometimes only marked by small cairns across huge slabs of rock and ice, i came to understand how often and how deeply guided we are, in so many of our experiences. there you are, in the middle of the nothing, scrambling over boulders in pure amazement, following a track of small towers that somebody you’ve never met left for you. winding across the mountain to the left — take the high road or the low road? both are reasonably passable, both a little scary. but somebody chose the low road. why? to show me something. to take us by the old skeleton of a goat, or get a view of a specific needle rock miles away, or to make our heart beat just so?
this notion of the individual, the path, that i so cherish. where is it? every article we read is guiding us through a discipline, every trail through a landscape, every tool through a craft. and, suddenly, it pops out into high relief — if we’re so often guided, around corners, averting death, through certain ways of thinking, judgments even… then it’s our responsibility to understand who these guides are, why they’re guiding us, and who to thank.
looking sideways at the spectacles to see what shade they are. a last-ditch effort to understand why everything seems green, or depressing, or what have you.
luckily, out in the Needles, it was pretty harmless. they nailed iron ladders into the rock at times to give us the inexperience of scaling the unscalable, and subjected us to breathtaking views and humbling realizations of scale, space, and time. i could relax into their intentions, their mentality. they’re taking us on a trip. a guided tour of wonder, so we could relax more fully into the wow, knowing their must be a way down.
sometimes it’s not that way. maybe with the news. but anyhow, we all know that. as the man says,
“You who choose to lead must follow
But if you fall you fall alone,
If you should stand then who’s to guide you?
If I knew the way I would take you home.”
4] schedule
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ankur is really trying to do something this year. focus more on understanding interactions between soil and water, humans and our environment, through the lens of the gift economy, applied to the world around us. the gift ecology, perhaps. as such, he’ll be receiving mail in paris a few months this year, and in india for the rest. specific details to come, but the departure seems to be march 1st. mexico until february 4th. sequim until february 11th. san francisco until february 25th. a few days of free time.
perhaps back in the states for july. depends on the oil economy. please let me know if you’re getting married. that kind of stuff is important.
5] poem: Salty Green Tea
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Morning light over the mountains warms the eyes
Salty tea from desert water in hand
We both are strangers here.
Eyes shut, the mind leaves to visit
The best people it has ever known.
Sun continues his rise.
Everything dissolves.
Is it possible? –
these accolades, judgments, predicates
are merely outstretched hands,
empty and grasping?
It is possible.
Nouns and adjective themselves collaborators in
a vast internal conspiracy tacking up
the facade of certainty, of permanence.
Let me try to peel the onion
without shedding more tears:
i. He is a great man
ii. He was so good, for me.
iii. He spoke to me with Such Kindness*
iv. Once, when he placed his hand atop my head,
I could feel the coursing divinity
v. A brief moment, love.
(* with kindness, you must tie your shoes)
6] healing notes
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Thank you for your prayers and response and laughter at my bike accident. It was really terrible for a while there. I don’t even remember the flying through the air part, and that must have been the best/worst of it. But I’m really much better. I owe incredible amounts of gratitude to the “surgical immobilizer” industry, which probably produced hundreds of thousands of neoprene movement constraint devices in 2011, one of which I wore stylishly for almost a month. Lots of gratitude as well to Mark Spencer, whose healing touch and massage skills I credit with my recovery on the physical side, and to the magic of ICE, which somehow reduced the inflammation on my right knee so I can run again, and almost sit in full lotus. Injury has a lot to do with a fear, and even now, I hesitate to make movement I know I can. A learning process. But anyhow, I’m better. Thank you thank you thank you.
love
Ankur Delight
www.mangolandia.org